I am from Italy, the less geeky country ever. I discovered the word geek a couple of years ago and it saved my life, literally, because I didn’t know how to call people like me, who likes Star Wars, daydreams about Hogwarts every single day, costantly quotes The Lord of the Rings and pretends to be an Elf every time strolling in a wood. My friends already had a word (or many) for that: odd, weird, obsessed (told in the less positive way possible), mad. I knew I’m not a nerd, I hate math, science and so on, also I’ve been a pretty failure in my highschool years at those subjects.
According to Wikipedia:
The word geek is a slang term originally used to describe eccentric or non-mainstream people; in current use, the word typically connotes an expert or enthusiast or a person obsessed with a hobby or intellectual pursuit, with a general pejorative meaning of a “peculiar or otherwise dislikable person, esp[ecially] one who is perceived to be overly intellectual”.Although often considered as a pejorative, the term is also used self-referentially without malice or as a source of pride. Its meaning has evolved to connote “someone who is interested in a subject (usually intellectual or complex) for its own sake”.
Yeah, that’s me.
When I started blogging, I’ve been fascinated by those minimalist blogs curated by american photographers and graphic designers, with stunning photography, well-written posts and tons of people who followed them. It was more like art exhibitions than blogs. For a while (read, a couple of years) I thought that, since I loved taking photos and sharing them (I didn’t own a smartphone + Instagram at that time), my blog had to look like that. I became a minimalism victim, I started interacting with those I thought were like-minded people, but I never felt myself comfortable in that environment.
Basically, I didn’t know who I was.
Than The Hobbit has been released and I threw myself in the fans’ madness, meeting so many people just like me. My own people! And then I understood who I was and that you can actually like photography and be a geek at the same time. That’s amazing, feeling yourself understood and not judged because of the things you like to watch, read, quote.
Testing is good, but do not spend years trying to be someone else, embrace your inner self now and try to find like-minded people. The world would be suddenly better.